I decided it was time to write about this.
I started taking EMPowerplus Q96 toward the end of July. Then in August I added the QVitalize Caffeine Free for Women supplement as well. I had high hopes for both of them. I really wanted it to be the solution I had been looking for for a long time.
As time progressed, however, I realized that it wasn't going to be the solution I wanted. It took me a while to realize it, and then to implement going off of it.
When I first started taking it, I noticed almost immediately that it took all my edginess away. I counted that as a good thing! No more mood swings! However, it also took away all my drive to do anything at all. So, I added the QVitalize. Initially I thought it was a good combination, but as time went on I began to notice more things...
Instead of being depressed and still able to function, I found myself severely depressed, almost to the point of nonfunctioning.
Instead of thinking negative thoughts, I didn't think anything, except toward the end, when I realized that I really needed to go off of it because of the thoughts that were entering my head.
Instead of being able to fake not being depressed all the time, I found I didn't care whether people thought I was depressed or not. I didn't care how I looked, I didn't care if my hair was done, or if I had a smile on my face, or anything. I didn't care if the dinner didn't get made or the laundry was done. I didn't care about anything.
There were some good things about being on it, but they didn't outweigh the negative things.
So, in January I decided to go off of it, and see if I noticed a difference.
YES.
So, apparently I am one of those people who don't react well to the ingredients in these pills. I know they help a lot of people, and I still think they are worth trying, but just like any other medication, you need to be aware of the possible side effects and also pay attention to how you are reacting to it, and if it isn't working, or is creating bigger problems, then it isn't for you.
Showing posts with label depression. Show all posts
Showing posts with label depression. Show all posts
Thursday, February 4, 2016
Sunday, August 16, 2015
A Path Through Q96 EmPower Plus
A few weeks ago I started taking the Q96 EmPower Plus supplement. Since I had a lot of friends and family interested in how it has affected me, initially I made an update post on facebook, but I decided that this update needed a lot more explaining. So I decided to update it on here.
It feels like I have been taking it longer than I have. I guess in reality it has only been two weeks. :)
A lot has happened.
So, here is the good that I have noticed, and that my husband has noticed.
I'm not as edgy. I don't get as upset about things as easily as I used to. I don't lose my temper. It's easier to stay calm, and not let things bug me as much. It's easier to look at the bright side of life. Before, it was a committment, but now I just do it because that's how I tend to see things. I sleep better at night. I wake up more refreshed than I have for a long time.
Some things that aren't so good, but then I realized it wasn't necessarily the supplement's fault.
I am the type of person that when I suffer from depression (and it typically comes in waves) I have never struggled getting up out of bed. I may not want to, I may just want to stay in my cocoon, but the sense of "but I HAVE TO DO THIS" overrides and I get out of bed anyway. It's just the way I am. Taking the supplement, that determination drive is gone. I do things because they should be done, but there have been a few days where it has been extremely difficult and there was no drive to do anything.
There were days and have been days where I have been extremely sad. At first I thought it was an unwanted side effect of the supplement, but then I realized that I have been going through the stages of grief, and anyone would be sad if put in my situation. It was then that I realized how much the supplement has been helping me physically, as well as mentally, during a time where I normally would have been exhausted, not sleeping, not eating, crying a ton, and just not great. Since I was taking the supplement, those effects weren't there. There has been occasional crying, occasional days of deep sadness, but nothing else. So, I have been really glad that I was taking the Q96 supplement.
As the weeks progress, I will try to continue with my review on how I feel, and how it's been, taking this supplement. So far though, it's definitely been a good thing, and definitely worth the money that I paid for it.
It feels like I have been taking it longer than I have. I guess in reality it has only been two weeks. :)
A lot has happened.
So, here is the good that I have noticed, and that my husband has noticed.
I'm not as edgy. I don't get as upset about things as easily as I used to. I don't lose my temper. It's easier to stay calm, and not let things bug me as much. It's easier to look at the bright side of life. Before, it was a committment, but now I just do it because that's how I tend to see things. I sleep better at night. I wake up more refreshed than I have for a long time.
Some things that aren't so good, but then I realized it wasn't necessarily the supplement's fault.
I am the type of person that when I suffer from depression (and it typically comes in waves) I have never struggled getting up out of bed. I may not want to, I may just want to stay in my cocoon, but the sense of "but I HAVE TO DO THIS" overrides and I get out of bed anyway. It's just the way I am. Taking the supplement, that determination drive is gone. I do things because they should be done, but there have been a few days where it has been extremely difficult and there was no drive to do anything.
There were days and have been days where I have been extremely sad. At first I thought it was an unwanted side effect of the supplement, but then I realized that I have been going through the stages of grief, and anyone would be sad if put in my situation. It was then that I realized how much the supplement has been helping me physically, as well as mentally, during a time where I normally would have been exhausted, not sleeping, not eating, crying a ton, and just not great. Since I was taking the supplement, those effects weren't there. There has been occasional crying, occasional days of deep sadness, but nothing else. So, I have been really glad that I was taking the Q96 supplement.
As the weeks progress, I will try to continue with my review on how I feel, and how it's been, taking this supplement. So far though, it's definitely been a good thing, and definitely worth the money that I paid for it.
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Thoughts, Memories, and Forgiveness
Initially I was going to base this whole post on forgiveness, and why we should practice forgiving others. It is something that I struggle with at times...I can tell this because if I happen to see specific people that made my life hell when I was in high school, I still have a hard time swallowing down the bile that rises in my throat and makes me want to hit them.
You'd think I would be over it by now. You would think that after almost twenty years, I would be tired of hanging on to that negative bit in my life. To be honest, I have reached a point now that I mostly have. I can't say that I think highly of them or like them though....still working on that one.
Then, yesterday, I found out that Robin Williams died. I know. Lot's of people are commenting on this today. Not only because he died, but how he died. I was sad to begin with, then with the knowledge that he committed suicide, my sorrow and compassion for his family deepened. It hit a little close to home.
Depression runs in my family. It runs in me. It's something that I've had to deal with in my life since I hit puberty. I think I've written about it before. Reading articles about thoughts that go through depressed people's minds, is like taking a look inside my head. They are so similar it's almost disturbing. It was so weird to me when I first went on an antidepressant to not have thoughts of death and dying. When I heard the phrase, "you might have depression if you often think about death and dying" I always thought they meant suicidal thoughts. I didn't have "suicidal" thoughts most of the time, but I DID think about death and dying all the time as it pertained to other people. Being free from those thoughts made me realize what a prevalent place they had in my mind!
I don't take antidepressants anymore. I know the greatest enigma of all is that people who are depressed don't typically like to take antidepressants. I know. You would think that if it helped then you would want to take them! For me, there was always this feeling that I should be above it. I shouldn't need to take them. There was also the feeling that I didn't feel like me. I didn't feel at all. I was in cloud world where nothing affected me, and it was weird. I also wanted to try and beat it. Not realizing that you can't really "beat it" you just learn how to deal with it, and the antidepressants are supposed to help you reach that.
For me, personally, the things that have helped the most have been alternative. Foot zoning, chakra healing, emotional clearing, they all helped. Chakra healing probably helped the most deeply though. For the first time in years I didn't have negative thoughts running through my brain all the time. I was positive and happy without even trying. If a negative thought ran through my brain like "I'm a terrible mother because of..." then a positive thought would immediately run through my brain reminding me that while I might not be perfect, I wasn't terrible.
Another thing that has always helped me, from the start of it all, was the knowledge that Jesus Christ is my Savior and Redeemer, and that He loves me. He knows what I am going through with a perfect clarity and in times of great distress (and I've had them, believe me) I need to anchor myself to Him. I think that is one of many reasons why I really like this talk given by Jeffrey R Holland.
Then because my soul speaks through music....this song by Kenneth Cope speaks to me on a deeper level, reminding me that Christ always is there for me if I let Him in. I know many other people deal with depression far worse than I have ever experienced. I hope that I can treat them with the compassion that I always want people to treat me with when I am having a particularly difficult time. Above all, don't give up hope!
You'd think I would be over it by now. You would think that after almost twenty years, I would be tired of hanging on to that negative bit in my life. To be honest, I have reached a point now that I mostly have. I can't say that I think highly of them or like them though....still working on that one.
Then, yesterday, I found out that Robin Williams died. I know. Lot's of people are commenting on this today. Not only because he died, but how he died. I was sad to begin with, then with the knowledge that he committed suicide, my sorrow and compassion for his family deepened. It hit a little close to home.
Depression runs in my family. It runs in me. It's something that I've had to deal with in my life since I hit puberty. I think I've written about it before. Reading articles about thoughts that go through depressed people's minds, is like taking a look inside my head. They are so similar it's almost disturbing. It was so weird to me when I first went on an antidepressant to not have thoughts of death and dying. When I heard the phrase, "you might have depression if you often think about death and dying" I always thought they meant suicidal thoughts. I didn't have "suicidal" thoughts most of the time, but I DID think about death and dying all the time as it pertained to other people. Being free from those thoughts made me realize what a prevalent place they had in my mind!
I don't take antidepressants anymore. I know the greatest enigma of all is that people who are depressed don't typically like to take antidepressants. I know. You would think that if it helped then you would want to take them! For me, there was always this feeling that I should be above it. I shouldn't need to take them. There was also the feeling that I didn't feel like me. I didn't feel at all. I was in cloud world where nothing affected me, and it was weird. I also wanted to try and beat it. Not realizing that you can't really "beat it" you just learn how to deal with it, and the antidepressants are supposed to help you reach that.
For me, personally, the things that have helped the most have been alternative. Foot zoning, chakra healing, emotional clearing, they all helped. Chakra healing probably helped the most deeply though. For the first time in years I didn't have negative thoughts running through my brain all the time. I was positive and happy without even trying. If a negative thought ran through my brain like "I'm a terrible mother because of..." then a positive thought would immediately run through my brain reminding me that while I might not be perfect, I wasn't terrible.
Another thing that has always helped me, from the start of it all, was the knowledge that Jesus Christ is my Savior and Redeemer, and that He loves me. He knows what I am going through with a perfect clarity and in times of great distress (and I've had them, believe me) I need to anchor myself to Him. I think that is one of many reasons why I really like this talk given by Jeffrey R Holland.
Then because my soul speaks through music....this song by Kenneth Cope speaks to me on a deeper level, reminding me that Christ always is there for me if I let Him in. I know many other people deal with depression far worse than I have ever experienced. I hope that I can treat them with the compassion that I always want people to treat me with when I am having a particularly difficult time. Above all, don't give up hope!
Friday, March 7, 2014
A Change For The Better
There are a lot of things that seem to run in my family. Depression is one of them. I first started to deal with it when I was about thirteen and going to middle school. I still remember the thoughts I had. I still remember how I felt, and wondering why I was feeling the way I did. It was hard.
The middle of my freshman year in high school, I decided I needed to change. I looked at my life, and really tried to remove anything negative. I looked over the music I listened to, the books I read, the movies I watched, the people I spent time with, and if I felt it was negative...I removed it. It was gone. A bit drastic, but it helped the depression go away, for a time.
That was just the first time.
After I was married, and had had my first child, I dealt with depression again. This time I went on an antidepressant. It helped, but it made me feel like I was on a cloud. I didn't feel like I was me. I didn't like it. I began to search for other ways to deal with depression.
The most beneficial for me, seemed to be energy work, foot zoning, and for a time, essential oils. I realized I had a lot of emotional baggage. It really helped keep the depression at bay, but it always seemed to come back. Still, I felt it was better than using medication to deal with it. I felt better.
So, a little while ago, I was struggling again. I was given access to Carol Tuttle's 7 Chakras healing program. I had dealt a little bit with chakras when I had had energy work done, so it wasn't a huge shift to just working on chakras.
In the program, she goes over all the chakras in detail, and how to open them, or heal them. She actually includes another chakra that isn't typically used, so technically there are 8 chakras that you can open/heal. I started with the first one. Just clearing and opening that one chakra made such a difference in my mind! It was amazing and wonderful!
As I have cleared others, a similar thing has taken place, and it has been so good. I still have two more that I need to clear, but I feel so much better now than I did. The thoughts in my mind are so much more positive. When a negative thought tries to enter in, I think, no, that's not right. That's not how it is.
It has also helped me be more positive. I have a better outlook on things. I'm able to do things that I wasn't able to before. I can actually feel my body healing things that it has dealt with for a long time. Another great thing, is I yell less. Things that used to bug me immensely don't seem to bother me as much anymore.
It's been a great mind shift, and a great change for me. Once I clear the last two, it will be interesting to see how I feel, and for how long. It's been a good thing.
The middle of my freshman year in high school, I decided I needed to change. I looked at my life, and really tried to remove anything negative. I looked over the music I listened to, the books I read, the movies I watched, the people I spent time with, and if I felt it was negative...I removed it. It was gone. A bit drastic, but it helped the depression go away, for a time.
That was just the first time.
After I was married, and had had my first child, I dealt with depression again. This time I went on an antidepressant. It helped, but it made me feel like I was on a cloud. I didn't feel like I was me. I didn't like it. I began to search for other ways to deal with depression.
The most beneficial for me, seemed to be energy work, foot zoning, and for a time, essential oils. I realized I had a lot of emotional baggage. It really helped keep the depression at bay, but it always seemed to come back. Still, I felt it was better than using medication to deal with it. I felt better.
So, a little while ago, I was struggling again. I was given access to Carol Tuttle's 7 Chakras healing program. I had dealt a little bit with chakras when I had had energy work done, so it wasn't a huge shift to just working on chakras.
In the program, she goes over all the chakras in detail, and how to open them, or heal them. She actually includes another chakra that isn't typically used, so technically there are 8 chakras that you can open/heal. I started with the first one. Just clearing and opening that one chakra made such a difference in my mind! It was amazing and wonderful!
As I have cleared others, a similar thing has taken place, and it has been so good. I still have two more that I need to clear, but I feel so much better now than I did. The thoughts in my mind are so much more positive. When a negative thought tries to enter in, I think, no, that's not right. That's not how it is.
It has also helped me be more positive. I have a better outlook on things. I'm able to do things that I wasn't able to before. I can actually feel my body healing things that it has dealt with for a long time. Another great thing, is I yell less. Things that used to bug me immensely don't seem to bother me as much anymore.
It's been a great mind shift, and a great change for me. Once I clear the last two, it will be interesting to see how I feel, and for how long. It's been a good thing.
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Dark
Today is a dark day for me... this is one of those days where I have to think of positive things, because they help me not be gloomy. I think a huge reason is because the air is yucky again and blech.
Today is the type of day that brings out the major pessimist in me, that likes to think about everything that is hard and going wrong in my life, instead of all the good.
Today is one of those days where I have to remind myself that I am a good person, and I am loved.
Today is one of those days when I have to tell myself that I do have friends, and people do like me, even though at this very moment, I feel so alone.
Today is a hard day. I will get through it, but it is hard.
That's all.
Today is the type of day that brings out the major pessimist in me, that likes to think about everything that is hard and going wrong in my life, instead of all the good.
Today is one of those days where I have to remind myself that I am a good person, and I am loved.
Today is one of those days when I have to tell myself that I do have friends, and people do like me, even though at this very moment, I feel so alone.
Today is a hard day. I will get through it, but it is hard.
That's all.
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